It's 4 AM and I'm having one of those 'dark night of the soul' episodes. Well, perhaps that's an exaggeration. But you know those nights when you wake up at 3 AM... and your mind is filled with thoughts that you consciously avoid during your waking hours... worries about your children, your grandchildren, friends, your friends' children, finances, health, climate control, the state of the world, the state of the nation... as well as old age and dying.
I personally think these pop up because they are things that for the most part, we have little or no control over. During the day our conscious mind is aware of this and push these thoughts aside, but at night when our guard is down, these worries resurface.
When there's no answer or solution, I tend to 'give it to God' (as the expression goes), have a cup of tea, and eventually go back to bed.
But I have found that humor helps... if I can laugh at myself. For instance - I've seen that ambulance, fire truck, etc. show up in the middle of the night (for neighbors as well as for my own mother)... and I wonder if and when it will one day come for me. I'm sure other 'older folk' must think about this too. However, my first thought before this band of strangers come charging into my house would be... 'are there dishes in the sink?"
Oh well... it is what it is right? (and we CAN handle it!)
Thanks for reading. Have a good Sunday (and don't leave any dishes in the sink!)
